Wide awake and frozen

I've heard stories about sleep paralysis long ago. 'Ghost' appearance is a common thing during the paralysis and there's a scientific explanation about it. However I was still really curious about the phenomena. I wondered how people feel during sleep paralysis. Few years later... or a few days ago, my curiosity was solved. It's not like I was wishing to experience sleep paralysis. I never knew what was coming. I was watching T.V. while lying on my bed at night. I didn't intend to sleep, but without realizing, I fell asleep. When I woke up, I  suddenly  saw shadows. I looked at the shadows and they transformed to ghostly looks. Their scary faces approached me until they're right in front of my face. I was in confusion and panic. I don't know whether it was a dream or not, I think I was hallucinating . The environment slowly turning into my own room and I could see ghosts, I tried to kick them but then I realized I couldn't move. The paralysis lasted about 10 seconds. I finally sat down, turned on the lights and felt relieved. From that point I understood that anyone who's struggled through an episode of being wide awake and frozen knows it's not a pretty thing.

have a nice dream

Friday 9 October was supposed to be a good day. If all went right, I would come to a party and leave for Bandung that night so I would enjoy the weekend there. But, let the past be the past. Sunday is almost over, I should close my eyes, concentrate my mind and pray to God..Sleep well and hope I'll have a nice dream..

9-26/11:24

Sudah seminggu dibandung dan sekarang saatnya kembali ke kos. Lebaran tahun ini sama seperti tahun - tahun kemarin. Dihabiskan bersama keluarga besar, tapi sayangnya ga sempet ke boyolali dan solo. Saat ini saya lg di km 51, menuju ke cipaganti lenteng agung. Beginilah kalau sedang ditol. Cuma bisa tidur dan buka blog. Sekalian, saya mau ngucapin minal aidzin wal faidzin, mohon maaf lahir batin. Btw, foto kawan - kawan yang lebaran di Balikpapan bikin iri, hehe. Semoga reunian di waktu lain saya bisa ikut..

emptiness, darkness, that came before dreams

Hello Darkness, it was always late at night, when everything and everyone else was quiet, that those voices would rise like ghosts, soft and haunting, filling your mind until sleep finally came.. In restless dream I walked alone in the narrow streets of cobblestone, Neath the halo of a street lamp. laughter, festivities have ended and I was on my way home. This dream, it’s not just a dream. It is a memory..

Day sixteen

I woke up at 4 am, just like millions of other fellow Muslims for the pre-dawn meal. I intend to keep the fast for today in this holy month of Ramadan.